Insecurity

The wait is endless and it is ripping me apart. Everybody says that I can’t. But god only knows whether I could or not. I just don’t want to fail. What if i?

I will be broken which ideally shouldn’t be the case. I should be strong enough to face it. Damn, why did I take it first of all? I knew it will be a hard fought battle. But eventually, I was obsessed with the idea. I simply loved it. I definitely don’t want to lose it at any cost. Am I just being confident or overconfident? There are few people who are consoling me telling that it’s to fail there is always next time which fairly makes sense.

But it’s not as easy as said. It will undermine my self confidence. It was the risk which I knew will have hard bargains. The past six months has been very tough. The journey wasn’t easy tough with constant speed breakers but when it has come to an end will I see light at the end of tunnel or be lost in the darkness. of course, I have few back plans which I had planned earlier only fearing for the worst. But will I be strong enough to face the worst is a million dollar question. Hope I sail through the toughest time of my life. I had once said, only when you fall, u will rise!!!!. But if I fall now, it will be a disastrous downfall

Deadly translation :-)

Hi folks, here comes my brand new post….oh there is buzzing rumors that am jobless again…..well, you can have your say!!….I tried my hand at writing poems and failed miserably  Jesus Christ, disastr-ous!!!!

I will not be posting any of my poems. But, that’s not the reason for u all to be happy. I will be translat-ing a Kannada movie song. That sounds exciting isn’t it?
One fine day in office, artifactory was down. That was a reason in disguise for us to while away time. One of my team mate pings and seeks my help. Me being generous at heart agreed to help her at my behest. The real challenge was to translate a famous Kannada song. If you think so that indeed it’s a cheap song with a lingo of that of the local crowd. At least for the listener’s mercy, the song is musical with enchanting lyrics. Apparently, it’s a song from the movie “Savari” which goes like this “Marali ma-reyaagi terali tereyaagi”

Any piece of work that has been translated for it to be appreciated by the crowd requires authors’ sound knowledge about both the languages. You are left wondering how I fit into this paradigm. So am I. Any ways, I haven’t used Kannada to English translator in spite of me designated as a software engineer. Not that am dumb, it’s an attempt to increase the fun quotient with bizarre skills. In case you have better translations. Keep me posted. Deep regrets, sorry for killing your time ;-)

Marali mareyaagi terali tereyaagi
Manada dadakeega badidu…olavu…sihisavi kavana…
Marali mareyaagi tarali tangaali ommi hosataada harusha…haravu
Hasi khushi kavana kanasani nee naanasagisi…
Kalarava nee pasarisi…nee Eniyani prithege sarathi

Marali mareyaagi terali tereyaagi
Manada dadakeega badidu…olavu…sihisavi kavana…

Ringana hosatana…tanuva Ee narthana
Tingala belagana kande Ee sanjenaa…
Daregilida bimbave nee…Vismayada kiranave nee…
Nanna kanasugala teelaadi kuniyuthide…
Nee Eniyanee…prithige sarathi

Marali mareyaagi terali tereyaagi
Manada dadakeega badidu…olavu…sihisavi kavana…

Bellada paakave nalla ninnolumeeye…
Nillada tavakave bhavya sammilanake..
Agasake rangerachi…bannadali bava ginugi..
Nalla chandirana mella keeli muridirisu
Nee Eniyane… prithege sarathi

Marali mareyaagi terali tereyaagi
Manada dadakeega badidu…olavu…sihisavi kavana…

Here it goes the real fun……………..

Again disappeared, appeared as a screen
Hit the shore of my heart….love…..sweet dreams…..
Again disappeared, appeared as a breeze, ********(don’t know)
Raw, happy poem….make the dreams come true….
Ease down my discomfort….you my darling , you are the charioteer of love

Again disappeared, appeared as a screen
Hit the shore of my heart….love…..sweet dreams…..
Crawling and new…. Dance of the body…
This evening, I saw the twilight
Came down to earth as its shadow……. You are Ecstasy’s sunrays…….
My dreams are floating and dancing
You my darling , you are the charioteer of love

Your love is sweet as Jaggery
Unstoppable desire for the excellent gets together
Spread colors in the sky, gave expression to colors
****************(don’t know)
You my darling , you are the charioteer of love
Again disappeared, appeared as a screen
Hit the shore of my heart….love…..sweet dreams…..